Determined to Change- can full time work and happiness co-exist?

Determined to Change

You know that point in your twenties when you know that you’re not old but somehow it feels like the last chance to do something? It has hit me that I am almost twenty-six. I can’t even bear to type the number. With less than 3 months to go until the dreaded day, what have I actually achieved? Why am I not yet financially stable? Didn’t I want to be living in London by now? Or actually New York, come to think of it? Is it getting too late to fulfill my dreams? Am I determined to change?

I know I’m not the only one- just type in ‘scared in your twenties’ and the guides on how to cope, what the biggest mistakes are and how to regain control are endless- but it still feels pretty lonely. My uni years were an endless party where we were not quite responsible enough to give a damn. The main worry was whether we could remember the rules for ‘Ring of Fire’. Or if we could be bothered to walk to Tesco Express, which we could see out of the window of our front room. Even that was purely to buy more alcohol for the dirty pint. Now life consists of setting alarms, making lunches and completing endless tasks that have nothing to do with my skills and talents at work. Seeing friends feels impossible as they try to juggle similar responsibilities.

Why should I sit in fear, feeling like I don’t deserve to make it in the career that I want to devote my time to? What makes me keep stalling? Why is the fear still taking over?

Money?

Most people who say that money is overrated can only claim that because they have money. For those of us who don’t it is an eternal circle of struggle; wanting to get out but not having the means to unless we win the lottery. Leaving my job for my hobby and somehow still paying the bills is not viable. Having said that, I know that I somehow need to regain my confidence. I need to take my life back into my hands. Work harder when I’m not at work to get myself out of this cycle of fear. And it starts here, now.

Determined to Change Rules:

Determined to Change, Rule 1: stop taking things for granted. No, I’m not exactly where I want to be, but that doesn’t mean that I have come nowhere. There are so many great things that I have done so I need to be a little gentler on myself.

Determined to Change, Rule 2: enjoy the struggle. It is going to be a tough journey. If it wasn’t full of struggle it probably wouldn’t be worth it anyway.

Determined to Change, Rule 3: love. Support networks get us through the most difficult times, whoever they are made up of, and success is nothing if you have no one to share it with. 

Determined to Change, Rule 4: take chances. Every little opportunity has potential and you have to be in it to win it. This post might be a complete flop, but I’ll never know (or learn from it) if I don’t upload it.

Determined to Change, Rule 5: Stop comparing. With social media being the thing that I turn to first thing in the morning when I have my coffee and the last thing at night before setting my alarm, this is a tricky one. It is so easy to see the amazing things that other people are doing and feel a pang of self-loathing (and even jealousy) that my life isn’t in perfect working order yet. Instead of letting that get me down I need to be happy for them and then keep going with my own thing. I’m not sure I’ve ever heard of anyone successful who got there by feeling insecure next to other peoples’ achievements. 

So, there we have it, now I just need to stay motivated. Do you practice self-care? Do you have any tips for staying on track?  I’d love to hear your thoughts, please leave a comment below! I’d also love for you to keep up to date with my posts, you can find my latest posts on my home page !

Emilie x

2 thoughts on “Determined to Change- can full time work and happiness co-exist?

  1. Its as if you just wrote down my thoughts! I totally get this!! Its weird that at 25 we can feel so old yet have barely lived our independant lives and yet still feel we aren’t achieving enough or we aren’t where we are suppose to be!! Time waits for no one, just stay determined!

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